Sunday, July 3, 2016

July 3rd, 2016; Sunday; 4:29A.M.; 68 degrees outside; 77 inside my bedroom; 23901.

Hello, I am hoping that you are remembering me (?). I'm Linda G. Jehoich-Lilley. I haven't been here in sometime now and feel as if I'm ready to get back in touch with my blogger friends and family.
First of all, Please, (I mean this sincerely) How Are You?
Perhaps you remember I told you several doctors had told me I had throat cancer? Well, sense I didn't have a cancer doctor my family doctors quit on me one by one. They would stay with me long enough to get to know me then quit. Last Thursday I mentioned to my youngest daughter (Tanya) sissy that I was interested in Cancer treatment centers of America and BOOM! she had me on hold and them on the other line. I was so scared all these years and no one would step up and help me. I know it sounds like I'm a child, Yes, I more than likely am. I don't know if I want to die, pass on at such a young age.
  Cancer Treatment Center of America out of Zion, Illinois sent me 4 pages of paper work to fill out and fax back to them- so I did with help from Rickey (my husband). Now the waiting begins. Its a holiday for all of us.
Please allow me to be honest with you, please allow me to talk openly and honestly with you. If you feel that you want or need to step in please don't hesitate. Jump in with both feet. Please be careful (gentle) with me though I am at a sensitive stage in my life and feel lost.
Yesterday I visited face book where someone had posted a pic. of a poster of Jesus Christ with his out stretched hand  it said something like "Let me guide you". I could have broken down in tears. That's all I've ever wanted in my life.
All day long I dwelled upon that pic. then I remembered in the Holy Bible it said  Pray Non-Ceasing.
So I've been learning how to pray non-ceasing. What do I do now???
This knot on/inside my neck has grown. That's not the point though. I'm not sure what I should do if I should do anything at all?
If it were you what would you do? un-fair question? Yes, I know. I feel as if its un-fair myself. I ask God for help and now I'm not sure. I want to live yet, I don't want half a face / head. How can I walk the streets as I go in Walmart to do my regular shopping with half a face or head? I'm praying that when I arrive at the C. T. C. of America that things will not be as bad as I'm thinking?
C.T.C. of America (Cancer treatment centers of America).
If you have any advice or if you know anyone that does have advice or first hand knowledge please have them contact me, if they wouldn't mind doing so. I would prefere email or texting though.
 I've missed  you all so very much! would enjoy writing and keeping in touch.
If God continues holding the door open for me to walk through I'll be leaving here around July 6th, 2016 Don't have any idea when I'll be back. I hate to admit to it but who knows if I'll be back? You see that's in Gods out stretched hands as well.  Please Pray for me. I will pray for you anytime just fill me in on details, as much or as little as you feel comfortable with.
   I 'll be around no matter what. I'll be talking to u a little later this afternoon.
                                                       Linda G. Jehoich-Lilley